This One Thing I Do

It's been a while.  But I finally have something to write about again. I drank coffee before I went to bed and now I can't sleep, so I figured I would write til I get tired. Ha!

I have started going to PWOC  (Protestant Women of the Chapel) on post every Tuesday morning.  They have a time of worship and then a ladies' Bible Study.  It's a great time of fellowship and meeting with other Christian women who are also military spouses.  The chapter I just went through last week was titled, "This One Thing I Do." It is taken from Philippians 3:13-14 where Paul says, "Brethren, I do not regard myself of having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on towards the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus."  Basically the whole chapter is about abiding with God and being in relationship with Him; getting to know Jesus Christ more and more with Him being the number one priority in your life.  There is a part in the book that talks about King David who "had many responsibilities, and there were many demands upon his time; but his number one priority was seeking God's face."   C.S.Lewis wrote, "When first things are put first, second things are not suppressed but increased."  Kind of like the whole "seek first His kingdom and all these will be added to you" mentality.  If I put God first, the rest of the day seems to fall into place and I still have time to do all the things that need to get done. 

I was thinking to myself tonight that sometimes I feel like I'm good at a lot of thing but not really great at any one thing.  I was good at piano, but I couldn't hardly read sheet music to save my life and I ended up slowly letting it go.  I was good at Spanish, and absolutely loved learning it, but I didn't pursue it to become great.  I didn't really enjoy school, so I learned what I had to to get good grades, but I had a hard time retaining information.  But going through this Bible study has given me a different perspective I guess.  I'm realizing that the one thing I would LOVE to excel at is having an awesome relationship with Jesus Christ!  Not just by going to church every Sunday, but really seeking His face every single day.  Romans 12:2 says "Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will."  That kind of transformation needs to happen daily.  I have experienced it a little bit in the past couple of weeks.  I realized that there are a few things that I would have gotten stressed out about a few months ago, but lately I've had sense of peace, knowing that it is beyond my control and that God will take care of it for me.  He has brought to my attention several similar instances in the past where He has provided for me and I think to myself, "I'm sorry I forgot about that Lord!  You're right.  I trust You."  And it's such a great feeling.  I used to feel bad when I didn't spend at least an hour with the Lord every day.  But there's another quote in this study that says, "My time with God is not always extensive, but I make the effort to sit at His feet consistently.  I think that consistency and attitude of heart is more important than the length of time we spend."  That was a comforting thought for me; to know that as long as I am consistently making an effort, the Lord will bless me for having the right attitude.  I want to be so close to Him that I can emanate His love to everyone I come in contact with.  I'm not perfect and I haven't spent as much time in the Word as I would like, but I am trying to change that now!  I don't want to be just okay at many different things.  I want to be really good at one and one that is the most important.  When I die I want people to remember me for my relationship with Christ.  Not that I played basketball once, or that I tried my hand at cake decorating, but that I loved Jesus with my whole heart!!  I want my life to truly matter! 

That's it for tonight.  I have two more topics and an update of our crazy Army life to write about that I will hopefully get to in the next couple of days!